There are not so many “if”s in this world I know. When you go wrong you go wrong. Got to accept it. So many great memories in mind, can’t believe I tried to kill myself. Nothing lasts that long as you think. With time flowing I learnt a lot. In my old world, five years is a long time. Refrigerators and washing machines never break down. I will always be the good student in school. But now everything has changed. I am not that super as I thought, I don’t live in dreams anymore. Best friends departed, memories became memories.
What is this new world anyway. I try to learn about it as a toddler now. honestly speaking I didn’t grow consequently as most of the teens. There’s a giant gap. Still remember teachers saying those who didn’t enjoy high school life felt heaven when they grew up, I felt completely the opposite. Maybe that’s how god operates fair. No matter how reluctant I was, family and friends helped me got through the case. I was lucky anyway. (most of the words I recognize but don’t know how to use correctly). I hope I can spend more years in high school. That way I can have more energy and interest to read various kinds of books.(suddenly I realize the interpreting part might be useful for writing). Why was I so enthusiastic about sci? like madly in love. I devoted my life to it. I enjoyed. I thought it was sacred. I can’t deny the fact that it still is. It’s just not that sacred in my heart anymore. Otherwise I wouldn’t feel nothing about the Nobel laureates. What the hell happened to me at that time? No one beat me and I stroke myself down. So ironic. Is that supposed to be my fate?
Don’t ever care too much again, Linna. Life is life, have a brand new attitude. You’ve got to change. Your era has ended. Just a new start. I know it is hard to accept, just try. Keep alive. Life is full of surprises. Get to know the world, patiently. Write often. Feels good.
朋友空间里面的东西 我不知道是什么 我不懂 她英语很好 但是不想问她 麻烦英语达人了 啊 不知道的请您别瞎翻 thanks
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